Preparation
Listen To This While Your Read
It has been a lot of work this past month. So much change has been thrown my way out of the blue turning my world upside down. The house/recording studio I share with my bandmate Malcolm is going to be put up on the market so we are being forced to leave on July 31st. More importantly, I have been dealing with the breakup of my girlfriend, Carly, and I's 4 year relationship. I have never grieved like this before, and it has really awakened a sense of compassion in me that has was laying dormant. It has been a struggle, but I am tapping into that inner strength that you discover only in times like these, and breaking my heart wide open and letting it spill out. Robert Browning said that truth resides in full within us all and to know consists of us opening up so the splendor may escape out rather than opening up to let light in we think we are without.
It is ironic and true that serious growth cannot happen without serious pain, it forces us to heal and to grow, whereas when we are safe and secure we are not pushed. It is also odd though how the person you love the most can hurt you the most. I suppose that is what it means to love and be vulnerable. One cannot be in love without giving yourself up to that space where you are vulnerable to be hurt. That is the give and take of life and love.
Through my healing process, I have enjoyed getting in touch with that force inside me that has been calling out for attention recently. I have been doing Hatha, Ayurevedic, and Kundalini yoga 3-4 times a week, as well as meditating and praying everyday. Without that force, I don't know how I would have gotten through this period. I am nurturing my spirit and my compassion and can feel that the greatest growth lies ahead. The thought of trekking in the Himalayas or meditating in Thailand brings a smile to my face and helps me get through each day.
I am glad that I am able to get in touch with many of you through this blog and hope that I can reconnect with many of you who I may not have spoken with recently but care so deeply about. I love you all and send my love. Be Well!
It has been a lot of work this past month. So much change has been thrown my way out of the blue turning my world upside down. The house/recording studio I share with my bandmate Malcolm is going to be put up on the market so we are being forced to leave on July 31st. More importantly, I have been dealing with the breakup of my girlfriend, Carly, and I's 4 year relationship. I have never grieved like this before, and it has really awakened a sense of compassion in me that has was laying dormant. It has been a struggle, but I am tapping into that inner strength that you discover only in times like these, and breaking my heart wide open and letting it spill out. Robert Browning said that truth resides in full within us all and to know consists of us opening up so the splendor may escape out rather than opening up to let light in we think we are without.
It is ironic and true that serious growth cannot happen without serious pain, it forces us to heal and to grow, whereas when we are safe and secure we are not pushed. It is also odd though how the person you love the most can hurt you the most. I suppose that is what it means to love and be vulnerable. One cannot be in love without giving yourself up to that space where you are vulnerable to be hurt. That is the give and take of life and love.
Through my healing process, I have enjoyed getting in touch with that force inside me that has been calling out for attention recently. I have been doing Hatha, Ayurevedic, and Kundalini yoga 3-4 times a week, as well as meditating and praying everyday. Without that force, I don't know how I would have gotten through this period. I am nurturing my spirit and my compassion and can feel that the greatest growth lies ahead. The thought of trekking in the Himalayas or meditating in Thailand brings a smile to my face and helps me get through each day.
I am glad that I am able to get in touch with many of you through this blog and hope that I can reconnect with many of you who I may not have spoken with recently but care so deeply about. I love you all and send my love. Be Well!
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